The last week has been filled with blasts from the past for me. 1st, I found a blogsite of an old, but darling friend. The guy has a soul and a heart. . . who knew?Then, on Facebook, I got traced by friends from Std 6 (grade 7). What a freaky week.
Now, I am being bugged via phone by my ex. Can I help him, he has no job, he needs a place to crash. . . gee, you still owe me about 5 grand from last time, so let me think about this:
Ok, NO. Not a chance, plus my daughter commented “Mom if you help him again I am going to stay with Gran.” Guess whose side I’m on.
I am 33, not ancient yet, but fast approaching I think. The current squeeze is 26 going on 27. It all seemed okay until we started talking about school days. When I was in 12th grade, he was still in primary school, grade 6. My daughters are now in grade 6, if they wanted to date a guy in 12th grade I would kill him and then ground them till they’re done with university.
So, my question is this: is it worth it or am I wasting my time? What do I see in the guy? That’s easy, he brings out my inner child, no bullshit. Is it serious? I dunno, more so from his side than mine, but I can tell you it’s one hell of ride and I mean that in every way you can imagine!
As for the suicide thing: you wont believe how simple it was to change my mind on that one. The kids have a facination with Charmed, so one of my commitments to them is to buy the bi-weekly episodes that are for sale at CNA. In the latest episode, Piper gets married. The mother of the bride cant attend the wedding because she’s dead. To see the way Piper reacts to not having her mom there, made me realise that I will be depriving my daugthers of that privilage. I had to get married without my dad and that was a horror to me, I cant imagine being able to get married and not have my mom there. So, for now, I think that I should stick around, for their sakes. Maybe I’m just too shit scared? Haven’t quite figured that one out yet
PostSecret didn’t have any cards I could really relate to this week, so maybe my point of view is changing slightly. It’s a bitch and it’s scary, but thanks to Charmed and I can be sure of one thing: the current high will pass eventually and I will be my old, depressed self pretty soon! Yay, another thing to look forward to.